Tuesday, April 6, 2010

life...

Life has hit.
Like a ton of bricks it  hit.
And so did the emotions


Yesterday
 we received a phone call
My husband's oldest brother had unexpectedly passed away

(if you remember...my husband lost his twin brother last June)


My husband is still grieving.
It hit him hard;
physically and mentally.
He has aged before my very eyes
I miss him so...
If you've walked through grief 
with someone 
you know what I mean.


I've been worried about his health.
There I said it-worried.
Really worried.
Down in your gut worried.


This morning, my oldest daughter called.
She was concerned about her pregnancy.
(For those that have been reading even longer you'll know
she lost her sweet Ellie at 24 weeks a few years back)

This pregnancy has been a day-to-day test in walking in faith.

She's at 18 weeks
and had not felt  movement
so I went with her  to check it out
You do not know 
how badly 
I did NOT want to go into that Dr's office.


No heartbeat.
again.

It is heartbreaking  
for a mother 
to see such raw pain on her daughter's face.



I will be away for a few days as I  pray for and serve my family.

I'm thankful for simple things:

 the little ones that keep us busy,

 caring Dr's that cry with their patient,

and 

 the Word of God that brings hope and comfort.


78 comments:

vintage girl at heart said...

Oh I am so sorry to hear this..I was thinking of Ellie Rene and your sweet daughter a few days ago and tried to look at her blog. She has been on my mind..
Prayers for strength and comfort in the coming days....this just breaks my heart for her and your Family.
I will pray for your dear Husband too...such loss in such a short time....

Catherine peacelovesweater@blogspot.com said...

I hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Brynwood Needleworks said...

I can't even begin to imagine the pain that you bear right along with your husband and daughter. May you find solace in the knowledge that the Lord will carry all of you until you no longer feel the raw pain you feel today. Know that you are not alone, and there are those of us who grieve with you for your unspeakable losses.
I'll keep you in my prayers.
Donna

debi said...

I'm so sorry for the pain your family is going through.
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending hugs.

Miss Gracie's House said...
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Createology said...

May prayers bring you and your family comfort. Blessings.

Tasha said...

We are praying and over here! Lots of love!!

Rachel Knoblich said...

I will be lifting you and your family up in prayer from this instant on. Jesus, wrap this family in your arms of love and bring comfort, peace and healing.

Doni said...

Oh Rene',
You know that words can't possibly tell you what I want to tell you..
That I care, that I'll pray...and that some day things will be better.
I wish I could give you a hug. And your daughter too. Tell her and your husband that there are people out here who are praying for them, that God would send His Holy Spirit to comfort each one of you, as only He can do, with the peace that passes understanding.
Love to you all,
Doni

Amy Kinser said...

I am so sorry. I wish that I could give you a hug and let you know that my heart hurts for your family. I lost a baby at 14 weeks and carried him until my body naturally miscarried. Such a bitter sweet blessing. (I can say that easily now) I am so very sorry for your daughter. I am so sorry for your husband. I am sorry for you. I will pray for your family as you walk through this time of sorrow.

Tete said...

He will give you what you need when you need it, just hang onto Him with both hands and hang onto your beautiful family. Feel His arms and walk in faith. You are in my prayers.

fairmaiden said...

I'm so sad along with you. Deep grief. You are in my prayers. The verse "The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away." comes to mind. We don't understand, but we remember He loves.

Sue said...

My heart goes out to your family. I too have had tragedy in my family a few years back. The only thing I could do is one day at a time, one moment at a time and sometimes one second at a time. I will pray for you and your family.

jAne said...

oh dear God. There are no words...

(*~(*~(*~ gentle embrace ~*)~*)~*)

prayer breathed heavenward. the Holy Spirit must formulate words, for i cannot.

i'm grieving for your husband, your daughter, you, your family. so sorry - i'm so sorry, rene'.

i love you,
jAne * tickleberry farm

Rochelle said...

Rene
May our Father's loving arms envelop all of you at this time and carry you when you are weary...
Praying
Rochelle

Cynthia K. said...

Oh, I'm so sorry - Bless your hearts...Sometimes Life just hurts, doesn't it? But this too shall thankfully pass. I know only too well and too much about grief as my husband, mother and younger brother went to heaven last year during a 9 month period. Regarding your husband, I did learn when my brother left, it was amazing how it affects you to have a sibling die - something about losing your sibling really takes you aback because this was your birth family, you experienced childhood with him and he had the same memories as you. Also he loved our mom and dad like I did - not many can still reminisce about them. It's your inner circle and it has been broken...

I will bring your daughter and husband and all of you in prayer to our Resurrected Lord...may He strengthen and heal and comfort you all.

Cynthia K. (Beauty and Blessings)

Rose ~Victorian Rose ~ said...

Rene' few things in our lives are as hard to deal with as grief..it is so unpredictable with our emotions from day to day...even moment to moment at times.
I am sorry, really sorry for the pain you and your family are dealing with right now...it's a LOT of for you to have to shoulder. I know that deep and helpless feeling.
Your husband.. is feeling very "threatened" right now..with his own mortality.
Your daughters loss is the deepest of all.
And if we did not have our FAITH......and the hope in seeing our loved ones again..yes, and I believe, even our little ones who never came into the world alive.
I am CERTAIN they will be there waiting for us in their PERFECT and immortal bodies.
I will be praying for your entire situation .
Take especially good care of yourself. Everyone needs you.
WITH LOVE,
Rose

Anne - Fiona and Twig said...

My heart aches for you and your family right now, so very much.

My words are inadequate, so I offer you all my prayers. God bless you all.

Anne

Amanda said...

God bless you all, take care. Hugs Amanda x

Mokzan said...

Sending you my thoughts....

FlowerLady said...

So sorry for your loss of your BIL. May you all feel God's love, peace and strength at this time. My heart goes out to you and your DH.

FlowerLady

podso said...

Oh my. Feeling for all you are dealing with. It seems to all come at once. Your last comments are a good focus. Remember God's grace is enough for what you need to day.

Julie Ann said...

I am so so deeply sorry, Miss Gracie. I will keep you, your husband, your daughter, and the rest of your family in my prayers...

Rosewood Cottage said...

sending prayers to you and your family...

Tracy said...

Praying for hurting hearts. may He who is able heal you all in HIs perfect timing.

A Thing for Roses said...

Dear Renee,

I'm so sorry for the heartache your family is going through right now. Just wanted you to know that you are in my loving thoughts.

Sending you a warm hug,

Lisa

Lori Katies Rose Cottage said...

I will be praying for you and your family ~

Lee Laurie said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Love and hugs to you,
Lee Laurie

Mary Beth said...

I am so sorry for your losses. Sometimes life seems to be more about loss than life, but God is good and He will walk with us through our journey. I am praying for you and your family... God's grace, comfort, and love.

judi said...

rene,
i am SO sorry for your losses. my heart aches for you and your family at this difficult time. your faith will get you through this. praying that God will give you the strength you need as you deal with this grief.
God is good.
judi ;)
the1829farmhouse.blogspot.com

Sweet Old Vintage said...

Please know sincere prayers and best wishes are being sent your way... I am so sorry for your losses and pain for you and your family.... Will be looking forward to your return and much better times....

Adrienne said...

Dear one -
I came here from Tickleberry Farm. I am praying for you and your family as you walk through the loss and grief that has hit your lives. May God hold you each close in His arms and may you feel the strength and comfort of His Spirit.
~Adrienne~

Sweet Sage said...

So very VeRy sorry, Rene.
Yes .. I know the worry all too well. You and yours will be in my heartfelt prayers.
(kim)

Sweet Magnolias Farm said...

Our families Prayers are with you. Life comes in seasons that is for sure. May God's Peace envelop your family and may his Grace be ever so sufficient to walk this path in life.

Blessings ...Sara of Sweet Magnolias Farm

It's me said...

I am so sorry for your losses and pain for you and your family...my dear Renee.............


You and yours will be in my prayers.

Blessings and a lot of hugs from me..........

sepiadreams said...

My love and prayers are being sent your way.....Love Tiina...

Susan said...

I came over from Tickleberry Farm. I recently lost my Dad and the ache is very present and I feel deeply for you in your losses. I miscarried with my first pregnancy and know how difficult it is to grieve for someone you so deeply want to know and to love. I will go before the Lord on behalf of your family. I will follow your beautiful blog.

Praise be to God...the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in trouble with the comfort we have received from God.
2 Cor. 1:3

Paula said...

Dear Rene`,

I am so very sorry to hear this!!! It breaks my heart that you and your family are going through so much heartache. I am so sorry for both losses! I will be praying for you, your husband and daughter, and all of your family. I am so thankful you know the Lord and the grace, peace and comfort that only He can gave when we are suffering so badly. He will never forsake you or leave you! May you feel His presence in a mighty way! Much love, Paula

colbycottage said...

I am so sorry for your family's losses,I will be praying for your family and am thankful that you know the Lord and have his strength to help at this time.~Kathy

jAne said...

breathing prayer heavenward

i love you,
jAne * tickleberry farm

Sue said...

Wow, I never understand the "whys" behind all these things happening at once. I hope your strength and faith will pull you though. My heart hurts for you and your family.
Take care, Sue

A Cottage Muse said...

Sending you a hug to pass along to you and your family. So sorry for your losses. Your strength, love and faith will give strength to others to help heal their heavy hearts.

thepaperroSe said...

so sorry to hear this. I will be praying for all of you.....

sandra said...

Oh, how my heart grieves for you. First, for your dear husband's loss, and secondly, for your precious daughter's aching heart. As a mom, I know that when our children hurt, the pain is such that we sometimes feel we can't bear it. Only God can comfort us at times like this. As I whisper a prayer for your family, two scriptures come to my mind.
Is. 41:10 & 43:1 & 2, and Jer. 32:27.
May God bring you and your family comfort and peace.
Blessings,
Sandra

Sherry @ No Minimalist Here said...

Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

ROSE VINE COTTAGE said...

Oh Rene I am so very very sorry, my heart hurts for you and your loved ones, I wish I could be there to give you a hug and a shoulder to cry on, I will keep your family in my prayers!
Hugs~Kelly

Petite Michelle Louise said...

rene..i am so very sorry for your losses. my heart broke for you when i read this post. i will keep you and your dear family in my thoughts and prayers. sending many blessings your way!

Jenn said...

Oh, how heartbreaking. My prayers are with your family.

Claudia said...

Dear Rene, I am so sorry. These losses are heartbreaking and words can never adequately express my sympathies. You and your family are in my thought and prayers as you cope with such devastating news.

Bless you,
Claudia

Ceekay- Thinkin of Home said...

Oh I am sooo sorry. I was once the daughter getting the sad news that my baby had died also....and at such an already sad time for your family. You are in my prayers.

Southern Belle said...

I found your blog by reading Tickleberry Farm. I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. How heartbreaking! I will be praying...

~Christine

The Tin Rabbit said...

Lifting you up in prayers and crying with you~

thisoldcottage said...

I am so deeply sorry for your losses. I know the pain you see in your husbands eyes. My husband lost his brother and sister within a few months of each other. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

suzyq said...

I cannot begin to imagine just how you are feeling at the moment. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Please know that your blogging family is thinking of you.
Suzy

Just a little something from Judy said...

Oh, my goodness!!! I am left speechless! I am so sorry!!! I am hurting so deeply for you right now...so deeply. I promise my prayers for you, your husband, your daughter, her husband...your whole family. Life can be so painful.

www.MaisonStGermain.com said...

I am so so sorry you are all going through this pain. You are all in my thoughts and prayer.
~Debra
Blog: Capers of the vintage vixens

Annie Louise said...

Oh my goodness, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May you find comfort and strength knowing others are supporting you and your family.
Take care of yourselves,
Jeanette

Robin said...

My heart breaks for your family! May God give you and your family the strengh needed to get thru this heart wrenching time. Praying for you and yours Robin

The Victorian Parlor said...

My prayers go out for you and your family. I have tears in my eyes as I read this. Even though I don't know you (I found your blog through Marietta at Sweet Old Vintage) your words have touched my heart. God's love is strong and I pray that you find comfort in his love.

Blessings,

Kim

Sandi said...

Oh Rene. My heart breaks for you and your precious family. Take the time you need and know that we love you and that you are in our prayers. Our heavenly Father cares for you and He alone will see you through this heartwrenching time. He loves you all so so much and he is grieving with you.
Much love!

Marydon Ford said...

Know that He is with you. I am sorry to learn of your heavy hearts. Prayers are being lifted for you.

TTFN ~ Hugs, Marydon

craftymarta said...

Dear Rene, I pray for the comfort that can only come from the heart of our God. I know that you and your family will walk in faith and hope no matter what. Tell your husband how sorry we are for his lost, thank God for the hope of Heaven. Tell your sweet daughter that our prayers are with her also. It seems that in our walk of faith we sometimes we get hit with all at once. We are strong in the Lord and we stand no matter what. I think the difference between a believer and non- believer is the fact that we do not loose sight, we cry, we hurt, we worried, all so human, but at the end of the day we raise up and proclaim the truth. God is good , and he is good all the time, always. WE praise you God no matter what. Blessings to you Marta.

Vintage Rose Collection said...

How my heart aches for you and your family at this most saddened time..Please know you are in my prayers..
God Bless you,
Jo-Anne

Kindred Spirit Soap Co. said...

I will also be praying...
Blessings
Julie

Carmie, the Single Nester said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Julie (Legacy Crafter) said...

May God Bless You over and over again
as you tend to your family! I will say a few prayers for you and your family as well.

GardenofDaisies said...

Oh my gosh, I am sooo sorry. Sorry to hear that your husband has lost two brothers. And sorry that your daughter has lost two babies. This is just heartbreaking. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything better.
Sending you and your family hugs.

BellaRosa said...

Rene amor, I am so sorry for the losses that you and your family are facing at this moment, sometimes saying I am sorry seems like so little when it is coming from someone that isn't dealing with such pain, but when we had so many losses in our family in such a short period, knowing so many cared for us during those hard times, truly bought us comfort. I hope it does that for you too. May your hearts be full of love to overcome the sadness that you are feeling at this time and bring you much strength in the coming weeks to deal with everything that you need to. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. Besos, Rose

ps..I truly hope what I said makes sense and helps, sometimes I my thoughts are hard to put into words, but know that my heart is in them.

grandma of 17 said...

Sometimes words are so inadequate to help someone in their time of grief, but God's word is always timely and healing. It took me a long time when my dad passed away -- everthing would remind me of him. Please take your time in grieving and don't hurry the process, God's ways are always best. Blessings to your daughter too -- what is our extreme sorrow is heaven's extreme gain. I will be praying for her and her family.

Laura said...

Rene,

God's word comforted me last summer as I watched my Dad leave us ~~

"Remember the word to Thy servant in which Thou has made me hope; this is my comfort in my affliction, that Thy word has revived me. Ps. 119:49-50

I pray you find His comfort.

Laura

Diane said...

I'm here for the very lst time and so sorry for your loss. A brother or a sister - memories - such a wrenching loss - I hope your memories will help.
Blessings,
Diane

Jane, at Thepaperaffair said...

So very sorry.

vintagebejoyful said...

oh, I'm so sorry about the loss your dear family has suffered.....Please know that you are in my prayers

Tracey

~~Deby said...

Taking these and all these entail to the throne....maybe my post was for you today...(((hugs))
deby

Heather ~Pretty Petals said...

I am so very sorry Rene, I will be praying for you and your sweet family. Such heartbreaking news for both your husband and your daughter. I know your Mothers heart must ache for your daughter.

Sending lots of hugs to you, xoxo Heather

tarnishedandtattered.blogsot.com said...

Oh Rene,
I'm saddened to read your post today. I know the grief that Ellie Rene feels, I pray for her & your sweet husband. Lisa

Lynn said...

I am so very sorry for your daughter,her husband and your husband and all your family. I know the heartbreak personally, my oldest daughter experienced a pregnancy like this. But for your dear daughter, the second time....... My condolensces to your brother on his deep loss also. You family is being tested in the fire of life severely at this time. I shall wrap you all in His comfort with my prayers.
Lynn

Fonville Farm said...

Rene, I want to thank you for visiting my blog and leaving your kind comment. Thank you for your prayers. I'm so sorry for your and your family's loss. I'm praying for you all as well. I was reading some of your posts, and isn't it amazing the amount of support that you get on here, from people that you've never met before. It's just so touching. I know that God will get us all through this.
Hugs,
Robin