The details don't really matter;
but what does matter is what I've learned.
I've learned that:
1. Grief is a very hard work-
a very physically demanding work.
(I never would have expected it to be so physical)
It has a timetable of its own-
God brings healing when He brings it.
Thank you to all of you who were so patient with me.
2. To question, to be angry, to struggle
is not to be a failure as a Christian
but is rather an opportunity
to really understand
I'm still here because God
hung onto me during the storm.
Cling as I might
it could never be enough.
3. That I don't always understand the mercy of God -
Why he gives a "yes" answer to one prayer
and then a "no" answer to the next one.
4. That God is good.
Not because he does good things
because He IS good.
5. That He will use this for good.
Hard as it is, maybe, just maybe,
I can encourage someone else.
But may it be softer, more full of grace, love and mercy.
Just like the Father's.
Praise the LORD, all my soul;
all my inmost being, praise His holy name.
Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
who forgives all your sins
and heals all your disease,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
Have a great day,